Sunday, September 30, 2007

I like to think.....

a lot. I love to sift through my thoughts. I have a hard time expressing my thoughts out loud and have an easier time writing them out. It's funny, sometimes when I am excited or anxious about something I tend to stutter and mix words together. I don't mean to, but verbally it doesnt come to me as fast. I started to read a book about introverts, it's talks about this. It's great it explains the differences between introverts and extroverts and how they gain energy differently. It says that innies as they call them, like to have their thoughts practiced out before they talk, me to a tee.

Anyway that is totally random, but a nice bit of randomness for the day. I like random things, I feel like it brings a simple spontaneity to life and you can also gain something from others. Well I got my MRI results back. I have completely mixed feelings about them. They came back completely normal. My head and brain seem to be fine according to this test. Part of me wished that they had found something, because then I would have a diagnosis and could be treated, another part of me is glad- hoping that maybe I can stop taking my medication. Turns out that I guess I didnt have a tumor last time they did an MRI also. So I am not sure why I have been on medication. But I am being referred to a specialist so maybe they will explain things better.

I would love to have my health stable so that I could focus better on other things. I have gotten the big packets of adoption application typed up, I just need to sit and finish the others. It will take a while, but hopefully we can get everything done by the time Lindsay leaves for deployment. I dont want to have to worry about taking care of it when he gets back but we'll see.

Today was a great sunday. I got to hold our friend's baby during sacrament and get him to sleep. I guess I am the only one he has let do that besides his parents and grandma. I love having experiences like this, holding the baby I mean, because it reminds me that I will be a good mom and have the skills to take care of a little one. I feel so blessed to be serving in the primary, it helps me with my cravings for a little one, and I feel like I grow being around them.

This weekend I read my Dad's personal history that he wrote. It was amazing, I was so glad that he was compelled at some point to write down his experiences and then to share them. He is a wonderful man that I look up to. I think that sometimes he feels like he is interfering with my life by asking questions and such, but I love it. It makes me feel close and secure with him. I cant wait to see him with grandkids. He will be such a sucker for their little smiles and giggles. I was glad to read about hardships and experiences in his life that made him grow in wisdom, it helped me relate to him. Thanks Dad!

Well after a novel of a post that is my weekend in a nutshell. I hope all of yours were uplifting as well.

1 comment:

Beth said...

Hey Sommer, I know you're probably sick of my comments. I promise I won't comment on everything you post, but I had to just say thanks for posting your thoughts. I never pictured you as an introvert. In fact, you come across so vibrant and willing to serve and make others happy. Thank you for that. I've been thinking over the weekend about how life is so not fair sometimes, and when I see you with children especially, I see what a natural you are at being so loving, gentle, compassionate, understanding, and patient. I believe that Heavenly Father is watching over each and every one of us. He has not forgotten you.