I have a confession to make

So I might have been a bad pet owner this evening, actually I really was one, a bad one. So in all of the years that we have had Boomer (3) I don't ever remember him going poop while on a walk, thus we never take baggies or anything with us because he doesn't like doing it on the go and having people watch him. So because I am used to that habit, tonight when I daringly took both of the dogs for a walk at the same time ( I know, I'm courageous) I didn't bring any with me. So we are walking along and Lola is giving me a terrible time while Boomer excitingly enough is walking very well on his leash and all of sudden instead of pulling hard to go forward, she is walking next to me and then behind me. I look back and she has been pooping as we are walking and I didn't notice. I feel bad, but not terrible because it's in the middle of the road, so while unsightly it's not in someone's yard. So I keep walking, then next thing I know we are close to grass and she finishes it off, and this time on the edge of someone's yard. I check my pockets just to make sure magically one had appeared but no. So I walk away embarrassed and knowing that I just did something a pet owner should never do. I have survived to tell you all, but I am not proud. Lesson learned.....Next time I will bring two bags! Just in case both decide to go.

And so I thought this walk would be good cause Linds left town yesterday and he is the best at exercising them and so since they lounge with me it would be nice to get some of their energy out and it's staying lighter out later......well I think I just amped up Lola!

Anyhow on another note, this weekend my friend Beth from our ward and myself are going snow camping with the Young Women from our ward. At first I was not that excited but now that she is going with me and the more I think about it I actually am really excited! I had a picture to post with me trying on a bunch of cold weather gear that I have the other night, but Lindsay took the camera with him. He was all cute, making me get everything out and trying it on before he left to make sure I had everything I need. Simply sweet!

This weekend I went to Time Out for Women and it was amazing!!!! I had a hard going at first because I walked in and about a million and a half women were pregnant or had small infants with them, but I took a couple of deep breaths and then I was good. The speakers were all amazing and Hilary Weeks and Mercy River were so awesome. Michael McLean was even there on Friday night and made a few shout outs on the adoption front with some of his song presentations! But I think the thing that hit me the most was that not only was it amazing to be with so many women of the same faith (remember I don't live in lucky Utah) but Hilary Weeks sang a song that she hasn't released yet but will be on her next album called "Just let me Cry" it talks about having a hard time and don't ask when, or why but just let me cry, it says the pain wont go away today and something about it being ok but today just let me cry. It was such a simple thing with all of the topics and speakers but so spectacular at the same time! Because that is exactly how I feel sometimes (although I am one who tends to hide away when I cry, but that is how I feel just let me be and support me through it but dont talk me out of it). It was awesome!

Let's try this again

So I am going to try to get the pics up again. As far as updates go Lindsay is super busy this week with and "exercise", basically this means that the air force is simulating a real life event and practicing what they would do in that situation. They aren't allowed to really talk about it but it keeps them at work A LOT! I remember one time when we lived on the base hearing over loud speakers all these codes being called out for a few days straight, strange, and yet I am starting to find comfort in the military lifestyle. I know that we are in for the long haul so I am starting to find the great things about it and really find support.

I recently contacted the Family Support center on the base and they sent me this huge packet on adoption support in the military. We haven't read through it completely but Lindsay was skimming through it one night and found that they may be able to help with funding and have some fact sheets about military adoption myths. It was so nice to see that. To know that some of my deep fears were myths. And hopefully our birth mom will understand that even though our family is in the military that we will still be able to keep in contact and that the military life does provide stability even though we will have to move.

I found out yesterday that I will be promoted at work to bea supervisor. I have never been one before and I am really excited and yet nervous and scared too. But it will be good, I look forward to the challenge.

Now for the pics.....

Lindsay strumming on the guitar with his sweet voice coming out! He is amazing!

Me and the doggies hanging out reading a magazine. As you can tell they cant stand not touching us.

This was us one morning in our hotel room in Vegas trying to look cool, I obviously am tired and Linds is too cool to smile. What goombahs! We were trying to take a pic since we couldn't take the camera with us.

This was by the pool at our hotel the last day of our trip. That tank behind us was a shark tank, pretty cool.....especially at night when the tank was lit but it was dark out!

This was me on the bed at the hotel that we stayed at for Valentine's Day, it was a ton of fun as I mentioned earlier and the room was safari themed, totally fun!

I have missed this place!!!

Hello again!!! I have totally missed blogging. A lot has happened and when I am struggling my introvert self wants to isolate. I realize this and am working on it. So that is where I have been, isolating. But that is not to say that the past month has been all bad, there has definitely been good at times. And I have a few pics to document......but that too we are working on, trying to take more pics. For example this week Lindsay was in vegas for the military and I took a few much needed days to go visit him, and we had our camera but its big and bulky and you cant bring them into the shows so we didnt carry it around too much. There is so much walking there that we would have had to walk like a mile just to go put it back in the car. We got a couple though.

So let me start back at Valentine's day........Lindsay and I had a gift certificate for a local historic hotel and so we stayed there. We upgraded our room so excited that we might get a jacuzzi tub and guess what the suite didn't even have any tub! What kind of suite doesnt have a tub to soak into? But it was soooo fun! We got to be tourisy in our town and walk around the cool shops downtown. And we found a sweet olive oil store that had all sorts of olive dips and vinegars and spreads, it was amazing especially since I come from italian heritage (I know I don't look it, but my dad is half italian and half swedish-I think I took after the swedish side). We also went to a movie called "Definitely, Maybe" and it was so good! The funny thing about it was that Lindsay had purposely kept me from seeing the preview (keep in mind we don't have cable and only get two fuzzy channels so it wasn't that hard) and then totally surprised me once we got to the theatres! It was so fun.

And then the roller coaster started it's descent in kind of a spiral manner. Things with my job got extra stressful and I was put into a position where I felt the need to stand up for the right possibly sacrificing some friendships, people's perspectives of me, etc. and I was having a really hard time dealing with it all. In the end I did what I believed to be right and stressed out like a mad woman, I have a cold sore I have been fighting to prove it. But I know that my prayers have been answered and feel comfort with the situation. I know that my Heavenly Father loves me so much and each one of us on this planet and that we will all be taken care of when we rely on him and his teachings and that is where I am at. By the way by doing what I thought was right, it turned out to be all right. I found support from people and trust from those who I needed trust from and I am so thankful for that.

So then this last week Lindsay was in Vegas for a business trip and I took a couple of days off and went down to hang out with him. IT was a blast! We stayed at the Golden Nugget and were able to shop and see a couple of shows, and just be together with no responsibilities. Lindsay didn't even have to go into work while I was down there. It was so nice. We were hoping for some nicer weather than up here, the sun was out which was nice but it was still cold, until yesterday when we left of course, it was 80 nice degrees. Those stinkers. But it was fun and was totally the break that I needed.

And the other nice thing is that tomorrow I don't have to go to work so I get an extra long weekend and will go back on tuesday how lucky I am!

I AM SO BLESSED! Hope that all of your weekends were great and it's great to be back and see the ground start to thaw!!!!

So blogger is being weird and I Can't upload any images but I will as soon as it will let me. See you soon!

Sommer