Prayers NEEDED

Hi Everyone, I would love it if anyone and everyone would be willing to say a special prayer for Lindsay, his crew, and all those involved with the military. The crew that was on their way to replace Lindsay's, damaged their Jet while landing in England.......thus they will not make it to the Middle East to let Lindsay and his crew come home. A prayer for those making decisions to make them and bring our men home safely and quickly would be great. As of right now it sounds like they won't be home until after Christmas. So all prayers for Lindsay's quick return home along with the rest of his crew would be much appreciated. The pilot and his wife are from Australia and they have family that flew in from Australia to spend the holidays here, so they would love to be able to spend time together as you can imagine.

Soooo please please please, and THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU!!!

aren't they adorable?

All right so I havent been posting as much cause there is not much going on lately. I have been busy doing odd things like cleaning, helping out with our ward christmas party at church, made stockings this weekend with Lindsay's family, or decorated them rather. And tonight I could not help but snap up this adorable picture of our furry kids. Lola was spayed this weekend, and the poor girl was so loopy when i brought her home saturday night but she has been doing wonderful and she is so in love with Boomer as you can see. I think that she is growing on him too and she is definitely bonding with me now. She was so unsocialized that it has taken a while, but she is the best dog cuddler I think I have ever come across, oh my little ones.........I think I could go on forever about them. yes I am probably a bit overboard but they are so wonderful! Animals are amazing for your heart, they are so unconditional and frogiving and always happy and wanting to please. I cant say they are always fun to deal with or train, but I am guessing it is a lot like kids, so worth it. I can tell you that we will do whatever it takes to bring our dogs with us wherever the Air Force takes us.

And an update on Linds, he plane was diverted this weekend to a different Middle Eastern location due to bad weather at his post ( sorry I am trying to put this in Laman's terms so hopefully you can catch on). His crew ended up working a 24 hour day with a 16+ hour flight due to this, the poor guys. He said that once they landed they slept for 12 hours straight, good for them! So please pray for us that they will return safely and on time, I am worried that they will get stuck somewhere on the way home. I would really love for him to get home on monday as scheduled but you never know with the military, it is totally out of our hands.

Anyhow that is the Moon family update, hope you are all enjoying your last week before Christmas!!!!

Almost there!

So this is a picture that Lindsay's family and I took last night to email to him. Lindsay had a rough weekend in his neck of the woods and ended up with little sleep and a grumpy mood. So we decided to cheer him up with a family photo. It was a lot of fun! And look how big Lola is getting, I can't believe it, I don't want her to get big yet, cause I want Lindsay to be able to play with her while she is still small, but I can't stop nature huh?

Alex was trying to look mad because he misses Lindsay so much and Lindsay only emails me. Haley (his wife) tried to tell him that I am more important to email, but he jokingly does not agree. Lindsay and Alex are inseperable, luckily it has been a great bonding experience for Haley and I and we are best friends also. Well I guess the boys are really lucky that Haley and I get along so well. She and I spent a lot of saturday making christmas presents, it was so much fun. I would show you pics, but I think some of my family lurks around the site, so that would spoil it all!

Today I met with our social worker again, I did my individual interview. Talk about feeling like you are in the hot seat! I know the reasons why everything is done, but it still feels invasive sometimes. I guess I just want to present myself in the best possible way but you have to talk about some not so great things. I of course being the emotional gal that I am cried throughout......luckily I did not get a crying headache though but I did expect that. Our social worker seems like a good guy, hopefully this whole approval stuff will go fast when Linds gets home.

And on thursday we celebrate our 4th wedding Anniversary! I am so proud of us! Unfortunately our anniversary doesnt really get celebrated being as money is spent on Christmas stuff, but one day we will be able to go on a trip to a warm place like our honeymoon (Puerto Vallarta, Mexico) and it will be Grand!

Today I also ordered the family gift for Lindsay's mom, it is going to be spectacular, I am chomping at the bits for that gift. This holiday has been unique for me but it has been good. I am excited to just spend the holiday with family. Oh and I must say that I am so thankful for all of you who have blogs, I truly feel like it is like a support group, up here in Washington FSA isn't as big and LDS services dont have classes or anything, so it has been wonderful to hear your stories and receive comments. I love it, I love that no matter where you go the church is the same, that adoption is similar for each family. I am thankful for my friends who have lended an ear, who have just spent time with me and Lindsay, and for my neighbors who have been wonderful while Linds has been away. He has snowplowed my sidewalk and walkway and around my cars each day that it has snowed. I am so blessed!

Anyhow not much more to say, I have been busy and not much time until my love comes home. Hope you all are enjoying this season!

So many things, so little time

So this will be one huge post. There has been and still is so many things going on. Lindsay has now been gone a little over a month (seems like years!) and we have three weeks left until he comes home from his deployment. I cannot wait! Some people tell me that I am a strong woman for being able to deal with him being gone often with short trips and then of course his deployments (he goes for two months more often than other services like the army), but I really admire the families who handle the year plus long deployments. I know Lindsay has gone many more times, but I think it is easier to have him home in between. Hopefully in the next few years this war will settle, but until my man is a soldier and I back him firmly.

It's been funny how when we got together I automatically felt more patriotic and had more voice about issues surrounding the troops. I am not one to voice my political opinion but I will surely stand up for any soldier or any member of their family when it comes to protecting on the homefront or over in the middle east. These men and women are amazing and have gone through tremendous things. And often times the families left behind are not given the proper recognition for everything they do for the soldiers. They are the backbone keeping these military members going.

All right I will get off my high horse but I did need to give my little shout out. It is very similar to the whole infertility or adoption scenario. You come across someone who has been touched by adoption and there is a natural and immediate bond. It's the same thing in the military, now matter where you go if I am talking to a spouse who is new to our squadron or someone who has been here years like we have......we can ALWAYS relate!

The adoption process is going. I met with our new social worker this last week so that I could actually put a name to a face (I am very visual) and he told me the time it takes for placement around here is two plus years. YIKES! I was not wanting to hear that. Hopefully our journey however long will go smoothly and pleasantly. And hopefully our prayers will be answered sooner than later, can you tell I am impatient? I am half kidding, We really looking forward to having our family grow, but we have joy in this journey. We have created a bond together that some couples may never have the opportunity to get, we have learned quickly the best way for us to communicate. We have learned to appreciate each other and learn how to help each other when we are hurting. Lindsay is my best friend, he is my confidant, he is my everything. I know that totally sounds cheesy but it's true....he totally makes my world go round.

When I see him with children....happiness just wells up inside my heart. He is amazing, he knows how to make them giggle and play. With older children he is just as stellar, with people in general he makes it really easy to feel comfortable and relaxed around. You can talk to him without feeling like he is judging you and always seems interested in what is being said, the young men in our church adore him. Although I dont think they would use that word. He has been the male role models that have been missing from their lives. I am so proud of him.

My thanksgiving was rockin' awesome! I got to hang out with my family and both of my brothers were home which was great. Ryan came in from Hawaii for the week after being in Iraq for 7 months with the Marines. Nathan and his wife Wendy and the beautiful baby girl also came from Pullman. Ahnna like I have said before looks just like me when I was a baby so she holds a special place in my heart. I am sure that she would anyways, but i just like to make that known. I am thankful for both of my brothers and the emples they have set for me. Each in different ways. Ryan knows how to live life to fullest and smell the roses every step of the way. Nathan knows how to make a plan and stick to it. He is very smart and knows how to organize things to make them last as long as possible ( you might call him a penny pincher, but hey it works!)

Over the holiday we all had fun talking, watching movies, and my new favorite.....Guitar Hero! I love that game, we had two guitars going on Thanksgiving day and man oh man, I am not great but I had a blast regardless.

And last but not least I am thankful for my dogs. Boomer we have had since he was a pup and he is our baby. We just got Lola and she is a spunky little miss. I love her but man she is fiery sometimes. At times she makes me chuckle even when she is doing something she is not supposed to because she is so darn cute. I picked her up just a few days after Linds had left for the middle east so he has only seen pics via email. I cant wait for them to meet in person.

So I have put some pictures on this post to show you what I have been doing the past few weeks and then some that Lindsay sent me of what He has been doing while gone. I hope you all enjoy. And I promise that I will try to be better about posting more often. And thanks everyone for the support while Lindsay has been gone it has been much appreciated!

Will it ever slow down?

So things have been so crazy lately. I forgot to mention in my last post that I was able to drop off a portion of our adoption paperwork and the deposit money at our adoption agency. It was so exciting and felt so good, that is was official. I just hope that We can keep up on it, I just want to be approved already. Today was one of those days where I really felt the pangs of infertility. I found an awesome blog http://therhouse.blogspot.com/ titled the R house. It has a lot of great articles and such about LDS family Services, our adoption agency and everything surrounding adoption and infertility. That was one thing I learned starting this whole adoption process has been that infertility will never go away, some days will be great and others not so much. Today I have been struggling with the idea of going to a certain baby shower this weekend. Typically all things baby dont usually bother me, I tend to keep quiet so as not to make others feel uncomfortable, funny how that works huh. The one who struggles turns inward to save the others. I am finding out to that sometimes I am perfectly comfortable talking about my struggles of inertility with those around me, the fear, the pain, the sadness, the blessings, and others I tend to hedge around and dodge things. But if you get me just right, I bust at the seams. the water gates open, and I will cry in anguish and in happiness about the situation that Lindsay and I face.

On Sunday in fast and testimony meeting I bore my testimony about how amazing the atonement is and how it is so key in adoption and making things full circle. My love for birth mothers and other adoptive couples grows daily. It seems that almost everyone I meet has been touched by adoption in some way or another. Just tonight I had dinner with the wives of the crew that Lindsay is deployed with. Each one was either adopted or had siblings that were adopted. It was wonderful, we laughed and talked about all the things that people say and do when they dont have the knowledge of adoption.

But today I feel sad....today is one of those days that I wish I could carry a child in my womb, feel a child grow inside me, wear a hospital bracelet with my name on it for the birth, and today that is ok. Because tomorrow is a new day and I can be just as excited about meeting the mother of our child, helping her in her journey, excited about parenting the child that is meant for our family. I think that part of what brought it on is that this weekend there is a baby shower that I truly want to attend to support the young woman who is pregnant and yet honestly this is the first time in my years of infertility to feel jealous that it is not me. I am not sure why it took this long, maybe the circumstances under which she faces, maybe just a point in my life where I am at, but I feel totally torn as to which I should do, support her and be there for her when she needs people most, or protect myself from my hardship.

I am not looking for sympathy or pity I am trying to convey how I feel. Raw is a good word for it. Most the time I feel like this trial is healed pretty well and every once in a while something scratched the scab and just a little comes off and needs to re-heal. Kind of a gruesome analogy but truth to me. Infertility is so intriguing to me, it has been such a blessing in that my husband and I have become so strong and grown closer together as a couple, we have been through highs and lows, and learned how to communicate on much higher levels than before this journey began. Yet on the other hand we have experienced a pain that is hard to express to those who have not felt it, we have asked ourselves and Heavenly Father all of the hard questions........why is my body failing me, what is wrong, we are doing everything the Lord is asking us to do and we still aren't getting pregnant while others are making mistakes and cant keep from getting pregnant, when will this be over, all of those questions you want to know at some point. I remember there was one point in this journey of ours that I pleaded if Heavenly Father could just tell us when we would have a child to hold in our arms that everything would be fine. I just wanted to know when the tunnel ended and the light could be glorified.

We know now that it is in the Lords time (Although hearing that from someone else is not always the easiest thing), we know that we will be great parents, and we cannot wait. I am so excited to do things with my kids that my mom did with me and my brothers. Excited to see Lindsay get down on the ground and be silly, go on family vacations, get up in the middle of the night to hold my crying baby knowing that I am the one that can get them back to sleep. It will be so wonderful.

Right now we are trying to decide if we want to have baby items around the house waiting for when we get "the Call" or if we want to scramble at the last minute because the daily reminders of our child who we are looking for will be hard.

Wow this post became a lot deeper than I imagined, but I think it is good for me and those close to me to understand a bit more. I realize that Lindsay and didn't talk about infertility with our families for a long time and that some may still feel like they dont know what has gone. This is for them, to get a glimpse into our sojourn.

Here are a couple of poems that I snagged from someone else's blog (Thank you Karli!!)

A Talk With My Unborn Child
a poem by Amy Borens
These arms of mine are still empty, it's been far too many years.
I can hardly keep them hidden, the heartache and the tears.
I am waiting for you, sweet angel, to bless my life, my heart, my soul.
I think I've been a good wife, now I want so much a mother's role.
My life doesn't seem complete, you are not there to hold.
A big piece of my life is missing, your destiny is yet untold.
I see you in my dreams, baby, ten little fingers and toes.
You have your Mommy's blue eyes, and your Daddy's ears and nose.
When my eyes are closed I think, will your room be pink or blue?
And how much of my life will pass before all my dreams come true?
Will I ever know the joy of rocking you at night?
Telling bedtime stories and tucking you in tight?
Will I ever be able to comfort you when you fall and scrape your knee?
To kiss and make it better at the tender age of three?
Can I watch you graduate and drive you to the mall?
Your dad could take you fishing and teach you to play ball.
Will you make me a gradma when I am old and gray?
Looking back at my life, I would be blessed in every way.
So why have I been left behind when I have so much to give?
I would gladly show you the whole world if you could only come to live.
Will my turn ever come? I search my anguished mind.
But questions without answers is all I seem to find.
I go home every night and fight the tightness in my chest.
The silence is so deafening in my little empty nest.
I know God has a plan for me and I shouldn't have such fear.
But why you can't be in my life He hasn't made quite clear.
I pray for you little one, everyday, can you hear?
So tell God we are ready to hold you forever dear.
You would never go without, we would shower you with love.
My little piece of heaven sent from up above.
My Someday Baby
by Dawn Champion
I wait, and I wait, and I wait, and I wait.
The slow horse still wanting out of the gate.
Hoping you'll begin before it's too late.
Where are you? My someday baby.
Each night I pray a prayer for you.
It is a prayer for daddy and me too.
I pray that I will someday feel you,
My kicking someday baby.
Every day I see children everywhere around.
I long to hear your laughing, cooing sound.
Your fingers around my one tightly wound,
My happy someday baby.
How will you smile? What color your eyes?
How will you like your birthday surprise?
Will you come to mommy to comfort your cries?
Wondrous you, my someday baby.
I touch terry sleepers, and booties so small,
And wonder how much longer my heart can bear all.
Hoping and wishing through all of these falls,
To spoil my someday baby.
How I long to rock you to sleep,
And to rub your head until you dream deep.
To watch you roll over and sit and then creep,
My sweet little someday baby.
The things others think are a pain, you see,
Sound like a piece of heaven to me.
To be awakened by something other than dreams,
My pleasure, my someday baby.
I don't know when you'll see this, or if you'll know
How much my heart dreamed of you, prayed for you so.
To feel you, and watch you and help you to grow,
My love, my someday baby.
I do hope and I pray, and sneak cries through the day,
With hope daddy and I will have you "someday."
That sooner rather than later you can hear me say,
"With love I welcome you", my someday baby.

Anyhow I can't wait for our little one!

In the mean time and on a totally different note, Lindsay and I decided to get another dog last week, I picked up our cute little Lola last sunday. She is 3 months old and is a doberman. She has been a bit skiddish due to lack of socialization but is warming up nicely. And Boomer is adjusting well. Here is a picture I am sure that I will write more about her in times to come.

I get to come home to this....

Wow so today was a long day at work. It didn't help that last night I went a concert. The concert totally rocked! I went and saw Ingrid Michaelson opening for Matt Nathanson. I would definitely recommend Ingrid's music tow anyone. She is AMAZING! So I took a picture of her album that I bought last night. (Notice the signed album written to Lindsay--yes I am a geeky fan!)

Anyhow so today was a long day...lots of stuff going on. At work things are a bit crazy because we are understaffed so stress is running high anyways and then we are also trying to implement some new procedures to hopefully make things a bit more efficient. SsssOOoooo this is all I looked forward to all day! I love coming home to my sweet Boomer. He is such a love and smiles when I walk in the door, he is forgiving and such a great cuddler. He instantly lifts my spirits and honestly eases a lot of anxiety for me. He is so well behaved, cute, and what is there not to love about him?

MMMMMmmm.....this is the life right now at my house.I love to cuddle with the furry man! We are hoping to start some obedience classes while Linds is gone so that Boomer can then move on to agility type classes and have lots of fun!

We pretty much treat Boomer like the child that we would love to have in our home. We got him from the pound when he was 3 months old soon after we had just started trying to get pregnant. The original plan was have him grow up with our child. Well Heavenly Father obviously has had a different plan for us. Boomer has been such a highlight and brought us such joy in the journey. We have tried to socialize him with as many dogs, kids, and babies. I could go on for hours about our silly boy but I will save it for those who ask. I just wanted to let you all know that Boomer is amazing and after a rough day at the office...He is on my mind and I just jump on the bed with him and cuddle.

Oh and a brief update on Linds, he made it safely to his destination in the Middle East. He has been busy training and flying. He has been working out everyday (there is not much else to do when not working) and is hoping to lose some weight and get in shape while gone. He has been in good spirits and gets along with his crew which is so nice, since they spend pretty much every waking moment together. I am hoping to get his mailing address soon so that I can send a fun package.

Ta Ta until next time!

* don't worry we dont really dress Boom in clothes we just a kick out of putting lindsay's t shirt on him one night. What a goof!

My Cup Runneth Over

Wow, so I truly feel like my cup runneth over in so many ways. I will try to keep this post coherent, but there has been so much going on that it may get a bit random. So to start out this weekend my brother Nathan and his wife Wendy had a beautiful baby girl this weekend. Both mother and daughter are doing wonderfully, they both look amazing. I may be bias, but I think Ahnna (the sweet little one) looks just like me when I was a baby. I actually feel special about that. Here she is!

Isn't she gorgeous? I drove to see her after I dropped Lindsay off at the base for his deployment, so it was awesome! I hope to see her again soon! But I got a small case of the sniffles so although I was planning on driving there friday, I dont think I will expose her to that.

So this weekend after the wonderful news.....we spent the weekend with Alex and Haley mostly. The boys made a spud gun and shot it off every chance they got. We broke glow sticks and watched the potatoes soar into the air. I felt like we were 15 again. It was a nice low key weekend. As the weekend was winding down it then became laundry time and finding things that Linds needed to pack. This time seems different than most. We both felt more emotionally prepared for this one, maybe because we have a goal....I am not sure. So we talked a lot this weekend, talked about the strain it puts on us, how we deal individually, it was great to just talk about it openly with him.

..............Than Monday came and things were busy, running around. I took some fun pics to remember the otherwise morose day. Here they are....

A lot of people have been wondering if I am doing all right. Here we go...I am going to spew a bunch of things out. I am doing fine. There is nothing I can really do about the situation, I would rather move on than have a pity party. Trust me I will get there and have my share, for now I am pretty numb to the pain of having my love deployed to the Middle East. Yes, he is pretty much out of harms way but it is not easy having him gone and having to communicate on somebody else's terms. I am happy to be able to do everything on my schedule and have my own routine, do things around the house as I would love. I am excited that we will be able to pay off a large sum of debt. Prepare us for our adoption that we are getting ever so excited about! Before I go further I want you all to know that I am not asking for pity or for people to feel sorry for me...I am expressing how I feel so you can get a glimpse. I am scared to be alone so much and yet love being by myself. I feel vulnerable to bad things happening because my number 1 is gone and I can't just call him to have him to come save me. I hate the anxiety I constantly feel until the moment I see him walk off the plane. I love that he is doing a job that he thoroughly enjoys, hate that it takes him away. Love that it helps us value each other and our marriage, hate that this is what it takes sometimes to get that reality check.

Enough of that for now, you will hear much more over the next couple of months I am sure! I also got to talk to my younger brother Ryan this evening. It was wonderful...I haven't talked to him in just about 8 months, he was in Iraq with the marines and recently returned to his base. I love that we can talk as adults now, that he is maturing and wanting to settle down. He is seeing the true priorities in life, I am so incredibly proud of him. The protective older sister still comes out and I want to make him do things, but its great to just talk to him.

So overall I am emotionally drained. Not necessarily a bad thing, but exhausted nonetheless. Talk to you soon!!!

Only a few more days!

Crazy stuff! So Lindsay got the waiver we were needing to be able to continue life as a Boom Operator. We are so grateful for that. But with that comes the deployment . He will be leaving on Monday for two months and should be home on Christmas Eve.....Hopefully, you never know with the military. I am not excited for him to be gone for that long, but this deployment will actually be good for our family. Lindsay will most likely re-enlist while he is over there for another 6 years and we are thinking that we would like the make a career out of the Air Force.

So this week, we have about a million things to do to get him ready and what not. So I feel like we are both running around with our heads cut off. But it will get done and all will go well. I tried to get my blog recently and a weird site came up, so if any trouble checking this out would you let me know, whether in the comments section or in an email? That would be great!
Have a wonderful Wednesday, and I will keep everyone updated on deployment stuff. Although I must admit, that most of the time not much happens on Lindsay's end, aside from the fact that he works his rear end off over there. So it may not be too exciting but regardless I wil let you all know.

Change of Seasons

So I am home alone on this friday afternoon. Lindsay is out at a shooting range with Alex ( His bestest bud and brother) and a new found hunting buddy from work. I have friday afternoons off and was going to run some errands but decided against them. I just finished getting the first copy of this years primary program written for our ward. A little late to just be starting but you know, that is just how it goes. I have been doing a lot of the major projects for primary lately this year, I am not complaining but it would be nice if someone took some of it off my hands. But it's all good.

So since I have been sitting here, I uploaded some pics that my dad sent me and was looking through old ones. I came across many pictures with my hair in all sorts of ways. It's been fun changing things. I like to outwardly show my personality so I have done so with my hair, let me see if I can show you some styles over the past few years!

Pretty crazy huh? Well I think I may be starting to get the hang of this blogging thing. We'll see where it takes us.

This week was so good but busy. Since being of medication I have felt in a much better mood and things are going well. We are hoping that Lindsay will be able to deploy in a little over a week even though it will be hard. But it's gorgeous outside lately. Everything is changing colors and all the yummy candle scents are coming out! Well I hope that you all have a great weekend!

Good Times

Well this past week was really good and I feel like I was rejuvenated to a point. Things have been busy at home trying to stay on top of chores and such. But this weekend we got to spend some time with Lindsay's sister Chelsea and her youngest daughter Azura. It was so nice to see them. I missed talking to her older Tori but hopefully soon we will see them again. Chelsea is such an inspiration to me. She is very knowledgable and leads a very healthy lifestyle and is always willing to share her knowledge. I loved sitting and talking with her about different things, oh the fun!

I love being around family, there is something so calming about it. Then this weekend also happened to be General Conference for our church so we went over to my parents house to watch it on the BYU channel. The talks were wonderful! It was great to hear adult talks, after being in primary so long it was nice to hear something aimed towards the adults. And on Sunday we also visited with Lindsay's uncle Kay.

All in all it was great, I feel alive right now. I also took myself off my medications early last week. I dont know how great of an idea it was, but I have been feeling much better lately. I figure I will keep this up until a specialist says I absolutely need them. They didn't seem to be doing much for me lately so I took the matter into my own hands.

Hope the weekend found you all in good spirits as well. Oh and welcome home Ryan! My brother is coming home from the middle east as we speak, I cant wait to see him at christmas. I am anxiously awaiting a phone call as well!

I like to think.....

a lot. I love to sift through my thoughts. I have a hard time expressing my thoughts out loud and have an easier time writing them out. It's funny, sometimes when I am excited or anxious about something I tend to stutter and mix words together. I don't mean to, but verbally it doesnt come to me as fast. I started to read a book about introverts, it's talks about this. It's great it explains the differences between introverts and extroverts and how they gain energy differently. It says that innies as they call them, like to have their thoughts practiced out before they talk, me to a tee.

Anyway that is totally random, but a nice bit of randomness for the day. I like random things, I feel like it brings a simple spontaneity to life and you can also gain something from others. Well I got my MRI results back. I have completely mixed feelings about them. They came back completely normal. My head and brain seem to be fine according to this test. Part of me wished that they had found something, because then I would have a diagnosis and could be treated, another part of me is glad- hoping that maybe I can stop taking my medication. Turns out that I guess I didnt have a tumor last time they did an MRI also. So I am not sure why I have been on medication. But I am being referred to a specialist so maybe they will explain things better.

I would love to have my health stable so that I could focus better on other things. I have gotten the big packets of adoption application typed up, I just need to sit and finish the others. It will take a while, but hopefully we can get everything done by the time Lindsay leaves for deployment. I dont want to have to worry about taking care of it when he gets back but we'll see.

Today was a great sunday. I got to hold our friend's baby during sacrament and get him to sleep. I guess I am the only one he has let do that besides his parents and grandma. I love having experiences like this, holding the baby I mean, because it reminds me that I will be a good mom and have the skills to take care of a little one. I feel so blessed to be serving in the primary, it helps me with my cravings for a little one, and I feel like I grow being around them.

This weekend I read my Dad's personal history that he wrote. It was amazing, I was so glad that he was compelled at some point to write down his experiences and then to share them. He is a wonderful man that I look up to. I think that sometimes he feels like he is interfering with my life by asking questions and such, but I love it. It makes me feel close and secure with him. I cant wait to see him with grandkids. He will be such a sucker for their little smiles and giggles. I was glad to read about hardships and experiences in his life that made him grow in wisdom, it helped me relate to him. Thanks Dad!

Well after a novel of a post that is my weekend in a nutshell. I hope all of yours were uplifting as well.

Exhausted!!

So I have actually been putting off posting for a few days. I know....I just got started and I already am putting it off. Well to tell you the truth I had a tinge of embarrassment after the first post. Who would want to read about my life, but I am going to stick with it for a while and see how things evolve.

Earlier this week I had another MRI done of my head and brain to see if there was evidence of a tumor. I dont have the results yet but I am looking forward to moving on with my health issues. I have had sheer exhaustion lately, that I am finding hard to deal with considering I work full time and have my husband to attend to as well as church duties. I dont know how pregnant women do it. Well I guess if I was pregnant I would have a different outlook on it. So here I am waiting to find out the results and hopefully move forward. Last night I went to bed before 8 pm and woke up at 630. I felt good when I woke up but now I feel like I need a two hour nap. Stinky eh? I felt bad because last night would have been great to just relax with Lindsay but I had a whopper of a headache that made me nauseated so I needed to try to sleep it off. That worked luckily!

And the mice that we had in our kitchen a while back are back again. For some reason they love our home. It is driving me batty. It makes me feel like I live in filth, yuck! But we got traps last night and Lindsay caught two. So hopefully we can catch them all before they reproduce too fastly.

I cannot wait for tomorrow, it's friday and I only have to work a half day! So I am just keep looking toward that!

Let's see how this goes!

Well let's see......I grew up using a computer and yet I still feel illiterate. I need to figure out how to resize my pics before I can post any, otherwise they will take up the entire screen. But soon hopefully.

I decided finally to start this for a few reasons. Well first of all I was and still am a bit hesitant for the fact that it feels very vulnerable to be writing things for all to see, plus I am an avid journaler and I didn't want to lose that with typing a blog. But the other things I think outway those concerns. First Lindsay and I have no idea how much longer we will be stationed at Fairchild and so this will be a great way for family and friends to stay in touch with us. Also I have read many others blogs and have felt much appreciation for their posts as they have helped me, so why not give back a little you know? And I think it will be a fun thing to do in my free time, especially when Lindsay is gone on his trips. Oh, I hate those so much, but he loves his job and I wouldn't want him to be doing something he doesn't love.

It is September and what better time to start a new hobby than when the cold is starting to come? Well there we go my first post. I am sure that they will get better with time, but we shall see.